Update 1

I'll come out with new update later. Maybe tonight or tomorrow. About what? My biases, OTPs and some other stuffs related to Kpop obviously :p

And yes, I'm thinking of switching back to my old blog. There's just too much memories there :( We'll see about it later :)

So what if I didn't show you how much you mean to me? I don't depends on people, I don't show my feelings anymore. Yes, I do to certain people but not to all of them. I keep it to myself. Yes, I wasn't there during your good times, but it doesn't make me as a bad friend right? I'm still there for you when you need me. At least I didn't leave when you're having problems. Yes, we argue with each other but so what? I don't treat you nicely, I criticize you. You should know that's the special way I treat you. I don't treat others that way because I know others can't accept it like you do. See my points?

Iloveyou. It doesn't matter how I treat you, what matters is when you're having a hard time, you'll see me.

6. Pamela

I'm so happy for my little sister. Congratulations Ella for making it to the dean list. You did well and I know you can do better next time. Keep up the good work okay? If only you're staying in Malaysia, I'll be driving to your house right now and give you a reallly big hug and treat you dinner okay lunch, cause you told me before that you didn't eat dinner. Lol. Still, I'll treat you something. Awh. Too bad we're not living in the same country :'(

Anyway, you should know that unnie is so proud of you okay? Remember that. Though I don't have much time to talk to you know, well, blame the college, but you should know you're always in my teeny weeny heart. I even don't have that much time to text you anymore, sorry honey. Remember this, I never forget you little sister. I hope all the best for you. Study harder and make unnie proud :p

I'm so happy because I still remember one of your last text to me that you told me about you have to study well for your family and for me and you know we will meet each other soon. You just did it dear. One day, I promise you that I will meet you. Oh my god, I feel like I want to buy something for you :D A BIG HUG TO MY LITTLE ELLA. I love you so freaking much ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

5. Lee Donghae

 "All our fans are our friends. But, those who LOVE me are my wives. Hello wives!" -Donghae

" I will keep in my heart, even after I die, the fact that I met E.L.F." -Donghae 

Oppa, you're getting older now. You're supposed to be 26 this year but I really do feel that you're turning 6 tomorrow. You're just too cute to be that old. And your childishness, aish, you really look like a little boy to me. Don't mind the number, be young at heart okay? Always keep this kind of personality. Be cheerful, be happy and smile always. Don't forget to smile, don't forget to stuck your tongue out and don't forget to pout just the way you love it :p

It's actually almost a year since I first know you but it feels like forever now. I won't call it a day without looking at your picture. Yes, I don't mind not listening to SJ songs / TV show you guys were guested in, but I can't go on without looking at your pictures. That's why I don't really follow your variety show. Ah, it doesn't matter because all that matters to me is my love for you guys ♥  

It was a waste that I didn't go for SS3 oppa. I wish I'd go but cause of some stupid reasons I can't make it. You don't know how sad I was at that time. I rant about that for almost a week. Yes, a week just because I can't go and see you. And remember the day when SJM had a free concert for Youth Day in Malaysia? I was hoping that you will come. I came early in the morning, waited and waited for almost 12 hours without eating and crash... You just didn't appear in front of me. I was frustrated cause at that point of time, I was really hoping you'll come. So, my wish is that there'll be SS4 Malaysia oppa. I really need to see you, so much. Please make it because I know I will try my hardest to go. It's just, please don't make it sold out too fast -__-"

In a few years from now, I hope I can still see that sweet smile of yours. That childish personality of yours. I just wish you won't change because all of us, ELF love you just the way you are. Take note of this oppa, I love everything about you. The good and bad side of you, though I can't really think of one bad thing about you. You're just too perfect Donghae. I love your voice, your personality, the things that you do. Just every single thing about you. I ♥ everything that involves you. Please take care of yourself, and your health. Don't fall sick. And get some rest when you're tired. Hope you'll always succeed in your life oppa ♥ Oh yeah, do take care of the members too okay oppa? Especially that ahjussi... Take care of the leader, take a really good care of him. I'm most worried about him among all of the members /sorry to say that though.

You're the best fish in the world and you're the only fish I love in this world oppa and I'm proud to be your wife (:

이동해, 사랑해 . 생일축하합니다

p/s : pictures are NOT mine. all pictures are credited to the rightful owner. 

4. Complete

A friend is supposed to complete your life, and not ruin your life.

Listen to the song and go through this lyrics :'D

As we pass by a fragrant road in this beautiful season
My cautious footsteps pound in my head
When you come closer while smiling for me
It feels like all the happiness in this world is mine.

The late afternoon sun wakes me up
And I don't know why but I smile

Although it might still be far in the future
I don't want it to just be a dream
Just one love
I hope to walk the same road together with you

Good morning Your morning call that wakes me up everyday
It feels like a morning we share together

You are more sweeter
Than the pretty candy you gave to me like in a movie

Although as time passes, we may change
Let's not let go of our hands
Just for love
Let's let this be our last love forever
I wish for that

Your love is just too precious
Oh it's true If we just look at each other
I want to be by yourself

Although as time passes, we may change
Let's not let go of our hands
Just for love
Let's let this be our last love forever
I wish for that

To make my life complete
You make my life complete

3. Exam

I would say Sunway TES is one of the meanest college in the world. We have to sit for exams in every two weeks time. Remember this, 2 weeks time. At first, yes, I hated that. What's with all this exams? Why do we have to sit for the exams? Can't we just sit for the final exam?! Yes, they sound like the worst college ever.

But... They are the best. I'll have to thank them for the exams. I know I won't study at all if we don't have all this kind of exams. The PT1, PT2 and ME. Yes, we will surely fail for finals. It's just too obvious. Even when I studied, I can hardly pass for my test, and what if I didn't? Well, I'll have to thank them so much. At least now I know where I'm standing, compared with my classmates.

It was hard to adapt accounting before, since I have zero knowledge about it before. But now, thanks to all the exams, I pushed myself to study a lot and now I got the basic. I passed my first two ACCA exams with quite good results too. I'm not showing off but I'll say all of my efforts have been paid. What they studied in Prinsip Perakaunan for 2 years, we passed it by studying it for less than 3 months. I thank god for all of this.

I won't give up. No matter how hard others said about this, I know I'll make it. I'll keep this in mind. I'll finish whatever I started. I've make it through all of this, so why would I say bye to this right? Amni, hwaiting!

P/s: I just had my PT2 for Costing and Accounting paper. I passed both. Have to work harder for my Accounting paper! :D

2. I Miss You

Kim Heechul, I seriously do. I miss you so much oppa. How I wish you'll be there along with the members when they perform. We love you so much oppa please do well in military. We'll always wait for you.

p/s : I cried while watching this MV. I miss everything about him. His milky white skin. His hair. His smile. His voice. Everything. Breakups Are So Like Me, at least there is something from him while he's away.